To a certain extent, I am always engulfed with guilt whenever we leave Ethan off at the baby sitter’s place in the morning before we go to work. Lately it has become more difficult for me, more so because now when we leave him there in the mornings, he gives us a forlorn look as if he *knows* we are not going to be around him for a few hours. It’s not that Mrs Tan the babysitter does not treat him well, but more like he is sad that we won’t be there for that period of time (when we’re at work).
And in the evening when we reach Mrs Tan’s place to pick him up, his face will immediately light up when he sees or hears us. His eyes will gleam and his lips will unfurl into the cutest sweetest smile ever, all the way into Daddy’s arms. When we reach home, he will walk/crawl to me and hug my legs for dear life (yes, like koala bear). Sometimes he will say “mum mum mum mum mum” and if there is still no response he will scream “MUM MUM MUM MUM MUM” even louder, until I feed him.
That’s his way of saying “I miss you Mommy!” and you know what? I most certainly miss him too!